Memorial:
William Meredith
Letter from Janet Gezari
William began teaching at Connecticut College in
1955. In the mid 1960s, when Upward Bound programs were a fresh
idea, he founded and taught in the colleges first program
for low-income inner city high school students. He taught here
until his retirement in 1983, after a stroke that immobilized
him for two years and left him with lasting expressive aphasia.
It was difficult for those of us who knew him before the stroke
to fix the boundaries between what he understood and what he could
say, although it often appeared that his apprehension of the world
remained full and satisfying, and that only his capacity to articulate
it was affected. I can remember afternoons in Uncasville, in the
early years after the stroke, when I, several of my colleagues,
and other friends took turns reading poetry to William and helping
him with the exercises in the speech manuals provided for his
rehabilitation. If I missed a word in a poem or put the stress
in the wrong place, he would stop me; meanwhile, the manuals had
him reciting simple commands using the smallest number of linguistic
units. The irony of his situation did not escape his notice, but
it never diminished his resolve. Those who knew him after the
stroke will remember his courage in the face of obstacles and
his determined optimism about his progress.
Those of
us fortunate enough to know William before the stroke know the
magnitude of his loss, and ours. William was consummately articulate,
and his conversation was one of the highest pleasures of his company.
His letters, typed on his old manual machine if he was at home
or handwritten if he was traveling, spoke about cadged meals,
boozy evenings with friends, and the cornus alternifolia he thought
you ought to have in your garden. He told wonderful stories and
liked elaborate jokes. He was effortlessly and often savagely
witty. His judgment of language was impeccable and accounts in
part for his centrality to the world of American poetry. William
knew all the poets, and several of his more celebrated contemporariesRobert
Penn Warren, John Berryman, and Robert Lowellrelied on his
responses to their poems and drafts of poems.
His criticism
was always discriminating, regardless of whether its object was
the work of a student or an established poet. Once, when William
was out of town and needed some information for preparing his
taxes, he asked me to get some papers for him from his office
files. While locating them, I noticed a file of his correspondence
on behalf of the Yale Review, where he was poetry editor. Thinking
he wouldnt mind or lapsing from my usual respect for privacy,
I looked inside. Although the practice was, even then, to send
curt rejection letters, William had taken the time to write a
real letter to each of the poets whose submission he was declining
to publish. The letters were careful, detailed, and stringent.
They took each poem and each poet seriously. They had taken who
knows how much time and effort to write. They were another instance
of his high courtesy.
While he
was at Connecticut College, William saw to it that poetry was
a part of life. Everyone came to New London to give readings.
Afterwards, there were long dinners in Uncasville where conversation
flowed as generously as the drinks did. William was most himself
when he was hosting one of these dinners. He believed that food
was meant to be served, and served with love. He wasnt particular
about what we ate but he was very particular about how we did
it. Stacking the dishes when you helped to clear the table was
never permitted. During the thirteen years I was Williams
colleague, I dont remember his taking a sabbatical, but
when he did take time away to teach at Carnegie Mellon or to perform
his duties at the Library of Congress, he would produce his substitute.
I remember all of these replacements well because they made extraordinary
contributions to the life of the English department and the college.
Blanche Boyd was one; the others were a former student and widely
published writer of historical fiction, Cecilia Holland; Robert
Hayden, who had preceded William as Poetry Consultant at the Library
of Congress; the playwright Romulus Linney; and the short story
writer, James Alan MacPherson.
It was a mark of Williams humility that his own poetry readings
always combined a few of his poems with a larger number of poems
written by others. He had no truck with grade inflation, and he
used a teachers shorthand when he described himself as a
B+ poet who had written a few A plus poems. One of these A plus
poems was Parents, which William wrote after a Thanksgiving
dinner at my house in 1975. What it must be like to have so observant
a poet at the table we can all imagine. How sharply, and how humanely,
he observed the habits of new parents bringing together their
own parents and introducing friends with whom their relations
were not so long but perhaps as deep, though outside the covenant
of generation. Two years earlier, my then husband and I had staged
a small dinner for William on the occasion of his fifty-fourth
birthday. I still have the thank you note he sent us, written
on a printed invitation to Norman Mailers black-tie fiftieth
birthday benefit at the Four Seasons. I am not ungrateful
for the unpretentious little gathering you had for me Saturday,
William wrote, but this is the kind of thing I really had
in mind He had underscored the invitations nod
to Mailers prominence: On which occasion he will make
an announcement of national importance (major). At the bottom,
there was this closing: do you think you could get it together
for 1974? love, William.
No one could
have fought harder against death than he did, and this was entirely
consistent with the life he had led and the poems he had written.
He felt himself bound to continue, whether he was flying a mission
for the Navy or composing a sestina. He feared cowardice more
than other terrors, but he also felt grateful for the beauty of
the universe and never stopped being conscious of its particular
kindness to him. A poem titled John and Anne takes
John Berrymans words about Anne Frank as its epigraph: the
hardest challenge, lets say, that a person can face without
defeat is the best for him. Just outside the door to Williams
house in Uncasville, there was a tamarack tree that had been savagely
cropped by an oil truck. He liked to point out that the accident
had made the tree thrive as it never could have otherwise.
William Meredith
was the least suicidal poet of his generation. His last book of
new poems, published a few years before his stroke, was titled
The Cheer, an improbable title for any poet but William. The first
poem in the book, a kind of envoi, goes like this:
Frankly,
Id like to make you smile
Words addressing evil wont turn evil back
but they can give us heart.
The cheer is hidden in right words.
By cheer William
means morale or confidence or, better still, courage, with its
etymological connections to heart. He wanted us to be heartened,
even thoughor perhaps becausewe live in a culture
in late imperial decline. The Cheer, written during the
Vietnam war, includes a poem in which the poet presents himself
as a mild-spoken citizen and respectfully accuses
his countrys president of criminal folly. A
mans mistakes, the poem slyly notes, his worst
acts,/ arent out of character, as hed like to think.
The Cheer includes several elegies, wry and celebratory poems
written in memory of Lowell, Hemingway, Plath, Berryman, and Shelley.
William dreamed and imagined death over and over. The elegy had
been an important kind of poem for him since at least The
Wreck of the Thresher, which he wrote to commemorate a
squad of brave men who died at sea in 1963. If his career
as a wartime pilot, someone who faced death down daily, provides
one important context for his struggle to survive after his stroke,
the too short lives of the poets he loved, past and present, provide
the other.
In Talking
Back (To W. H. Auden), William rejects Audens idea
(in his elegy for W. B. Yeats) that poetry makes nothing
happen. What it makes happen is small things,
his poem says. Williams highest aspiration as a poet was
always spiritual, but he was never solemn. He agreed with Frost
that all the funs in how you say a thing. His
most memorable poems enable us to see the most forgettable things
newly and to be changed by what weve seen. In one of Tom
Stoppards plays, theres a sentence honoring the effort
at speech that defined Williams life: If you get the
right [words] in the right order, you can nudge the world a little
or make a poem which children will speak for you when youre
dead.
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